I swear, I loved you with everything I had… You treated me like shit but I loved you through it all. Every argument, every abusive word you said. I loved you. I did all I could, but it still wasn’t sufficient. You weren’t happy with me. Every stab you’d take at me didn’t quite go through to my heart, until that one day. That one day I had enough. I didn’t want it anymore. I didn’t want YOU any more. So I said my goodbyes. You cried. A lot. Brought me a single rose. What was that rose symbolizing? That you’d change? I didn’t buy it. Whenever I start to feel bad about how you tried to win me back, I realize you never would have been in that situation if you hadn’t royally fucked up. So congratulations, you lost the best thing you’d EVER have. 

Your cigarettes drained me
But kept you going
The satisfaction of you was enough
3 years distant, nothing to share
But laughter and smiles in the darkness
Under the covers, bare skin
Your body ached for mine
Our lips became quite acquainted
Your touch electrified me
As my body trusted yours
Pulses racing, sensations tingling
You took me back to that same place
Where he once did
That place full of warmth and secrets
Pleasure within our fingertips
The mistake was all mine
To let you in so quickly
Only to be pushed away
Forever to be just another mistake
That was worth living through